Monday, November 13, 2006

My life...
Current mood: complacent
I did it! I moved out. So guys, I now live at Mary's house. If any of you don't know who I'm talking about message me and I will send you the new address and phone number. It's really wierd living there, but in a nice way. I just do what I want and Mary doesn't bother me for no good reason. I don't feel like I'm obligated to do anything. I've been doing alot of new things recently For instance, Saturday night, I forked somebody's yard, yes forked. It was immature yes but I have never, ever done anything like that before so it was cool. Then, last night Jason brought over "The Butterfly Effect" and we watched it together, it didn't end until midnight!! (This is a big deal because my curfew at dad's was 10:00 and he hates jason so he could never come to my house to watch a movie) It was a good movie. I didn't know that Ashton Kutcher could really act, I thought he was just a pretty face:)

But the movie got me to thinking about your past constructing your future. How what I've done and will do in the coming months will make a huge imprint on my future and it makes me wonder just exactly what that will be. It would be tempting to block out my parents and say, oh yeah, they were losers. But I'm not going to abandon my family, that's not me. I am going to start building something big.... I'm not even sure what I'm talking about exactly but I'm going to do something different. I'm really sick of the whole: fell in love in high school-she got pregnant-we got married-that was the end of our dreams scenario.I swear that is the story of my whole family tree! But-aye- we are scottish, the story is not complete with the "I hate my father and he hated his father and his before him" stubborness. This has to stop. Well.... except for the fell in love in high school part... that can happen, I like that part ;)

So yeah, if anyone can understand my rambling, a penny for your thoughts.

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forking was amazing. and we chase down was funny too. i gald you came along. :)


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hope his face isn't as pretty as mine in your eyes ;)