Saturday, November 12, 2005

Dad Talk PT2
Current mood: tired
Category: Blogging
Okay so like I was saying I told him this because when he first started to have a problem with Jason he told refused to tell us what he was mad about except that it was disrespect. I quote "you guys figure it out, I'm not spelling it out for you, You know what the problem is." Well he's a good kid and I'm a good kid and we couldn't figure it out until it was too late. So he refers to losing trust in me because he feels I took my relationship w/ Jason "underground" (which I did) he says "so you talk to him regularly but I don't hear anything about you're conversations." I told him I don't mention "oh yeah, Jason said *funnyrandomthing* because that'll will be met with frowning, dropping the whole topic and yelling about the next thing that irritates you in the slightest. So to avoid tension I just don't mention him. Now I'm tired of writing I said and he said so we go dialogue style. And he askes if we're just going to keep this up till he gets tired of yelling again. Me: well, you're not what it depends on but kind of, I love him. and if Jason went and married someone next year I still would love him (lol, not necessarily in a romantice sense) because he's definitly one of my best friends. Dad: I never said you couldn't be friends with him. Me: Oh yes you definitly did you said you didn't want him even talking to me. You don't even want him to wait with me while you come to pick me up. Dad: That because he'll push for a God damned relationship. Me: Well I want that too, I think we deserve a chance at a relationship. I think he would be respectful enough, you have no idea how much different he'd be. he's been asking me if it'd be a good idea to apoligize and I told him it won't matter b/c you wouldn't listen. Dad: I don't think he's genuine. I just think he'd say anything right now. Me: Then we're back to the trust thing. I believe in him, I'm asking you to trust me and give me this. He didn't say anthing after that but he was thinking really hard about it so I'm very hopeful about this. Thanks to God to because I've been praying that He would help me to figure out how to talk to my dad rationally because love has got me so befuddled and I was thinking so clearly i must have had help.:)